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I Just Held Her

January 7, 2015 Sarah Coggins

After nursing Elise to sleep on Monday night, I held her up to my chest, her head on my shoulder and rocked her while gently patting her back waiting on a burp. It’s a nightly ritual, but this time it was different. Even while she was sound asleep and breathing deeply against my neck, I couldn’t bring myself to carry her across the room and put her down.

I just held her and rocked.

I felt the warmth of her little body pressed to mine. Took a deep whiff of that sweet baby smell. Rubbed her back with my left hand. And rocked and rocked.

I knew I should go ahead and lay her down. Then head off to bed myself. But I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t stand. Instead I stayed.

Sleeping Baby Nov 2014
Napping on mom at one month

I just held her and rocked.

The thoughts raced through my mind as I tried hard to absorb every minute detail of the moment. She’s only 11-1/2 weeks and yet changing so fast.

I remembered how during her first month she spent many afternoon naps on my chest as I reclined on the loveseat in our family room. I couldn’t put her down then either. And now? Now she cat naps a few times a day. She usually takes one long 3-4 hour nap typically in her car seat as she falls asleep while we’re out for a walk or running errands. Then bedtime happens between 9-10pm and she sleeps all night as much as 11 hours. Seriously. I’m so unbelievably grateful especially after having to cry it out with Dylan at 8 months, but … sometimes I miss holding her in the quiet of the night and I definitely miss those nap time snuggles in my arms.

So I stayed put.

I just held her and rocked.

Because my baby girl, my last baby, isn’t even 3 months old but already growing up so fast and I want to pause and take it all in.


  • Laila (@FrontRowMama) January 7, 2015 at 10:25 am
    It seems like only yesterday you were pregnant! They do grow up so fast and it's a beautiful thing to be able to document the little moments. She's so precious!
    • Sarah Coggins January 7, 2015 at 10:37 am
      Thanks! It definitely feels like only yesterday sometimes. And at others like she's always been here. Funny how time can be.
  • Jennifer January 7, 2015 at 4:01 pm
    I remember that. I miss it.
    • Sarah Coggins January 8, 2015 at 2:13 pm
      It goes by so fast, doesn't it? Why I'm clinging to every moment.
  • Nicole @MTDLBlog January 7, 2015 at 6:12 pm
    I so miss those days. My babies just turned five. It goes by in a blink, so enjoy every single minute.
    • Sarah Coggins January 8, 2015 at 2:14 pm
      Yes! My son is 5 so I've seen how quickly it goes. Definitely causing me to enjoy every moment so much more with both of them.
  • Kim Andeson January 7, 2015 at 10:38 pm
    I was waiting for the part where you cry. Did anyone else cry? I used to cry every single time I thought about the fact that he was getting bigger pretty much until he was like 6 months old. So sweet!
    • Sarah Coggins January 8, 2015 at 2:17 pm
      I've cried every year the night before my son's birthday. Grateful he's celebrating another year, but also - "what?! Another year has passed?!" I'm sure I'll cry the night before her birthdays too. I do find myself getting a little teary-eyed watching all her firsts and knowing that's the last time I'll witness a "first" with my own kids. Bittersweet.
  • Terri W January 11, 2015 at 2:58 pm
    Very bittersweet Sarah but how blessed to be able to just sit there and rock without interruption. I too tear up at my son's birthday, but ladies, he is 31 :)
    • Sarah Coggins January 12, 2015 at 10:32 am
      So I'll keep crying? ;) The years go way too fast. I'm definitely soaking up every second I can with both kids. Grateful Dylan will still let me hold & cuddle him some too. Some.
  • Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? January 12, 2015 at 9:11 pm
    These are just my all time favorite moments! My girls hardly ever fall asleep on me anymore, so when they do, I just hold them and breathe them in!
    • Sarah Coggins January 14, 2015 at 8:19 pm
      My son still lets me put him to bed each night and snuggle him. I'm embracing it because I know it won't last forever. They grow up so fast!
  • Janet Petersma January 21, 2015 at 7:24 pm
    Awww, Sarah, this is so precious. As a mom of a now 22-year old, I would love to be able to go back in time to those moments. Time really does fly. Enjoy the now. :)
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